its my life story

Hi im back (:

27 September 2011 @ 4:25 AM

Hi! im back for monthssss after not blogging for long! heh!
well, am not going to delete this blog for obvious sake.
This blog have been with me for like years & delete it away just
as same as im deleting apart of me. Too much things ive blogged.
And this blog have been there for me thru ups & down tho! (:

Ive too much of things ive yet to say.
Eversince im on twitter like 24hours, twitter have been there for
me now. But love, im not gna abandon you for real k?
im just plain to lazy to update you. But once in a while you know,
i visited you.
Did pretty well for my year 3 exams. beyond my expectations.
mom bought for me new cloth just because i did well.
I cried. Too happy. haha. & thank you mom,
you've been great! Im glad your proud of me, whateverthings i do.
Ive got alot to say. But ill keep it for later then!
anyway, Mom been keep asking too much abt a particular friend of mine.
every now and then. yes, i am that JEALOUS.
told first bro & sis in law. they teased me instead. well,
i ought to feel jealous aint i?
Eventho mom gave me & showered me with hell more things
then others, still, im jealous.
Oh mom, stop being SOOOOO nice to my friends.
i know your so kind and good. But you havta remember your
only daughter here are like crushing into pieces inside.
& rmbr, that friend of mine hurt me like no tmr before.
You knew it.
So please mom, stop asking abt tht friend of mine.
shes not my bestf nor anything.
Or maybe, im still paranoid about the past.
Well, trust that are crushed into million pieces are definitely hard to
be mend that quickly.
Just so you know, i got problem in trusting people easily nowadays.
Unless they prove me wrong and convince me why i shud trust them.

But again, once my trust are broken,
it take years to build that trust back.
You wldnt know how hurt it feels like
being betrayed.

Labels: broken and hurt

09 July 2011 @ 4:59 PM

My life is pretty useless.

f.pissed!

24 June 2011 @ 12:09 AM

things are getting from bad to worst.
its like as tho your doing for yourself!
your not thinking about us!
and i dont seem to see we're doing this but it seems like
your doing this for us. FOR EVERY SINGLE THING!
i fucking hate it when i earn smth tht im not supposed
to be earning. it dsnt paid off.
cause its not my hardwork and i want my hardwork
to be paid off with things i did.
it should be balance aint it?
arghhh! cork up ah! serious shit.
envy others. why cant we do it from scratched?
all we have to follow your standard and this is totally not
cool. and im totally not happy about this at all.
damn fucking pissed i tell you.

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